iwillfightbetter

My ongoing and ever evolving story of recovery from an eating disorder and depression. Constantly learning, changing and growing. It can be a beautiful process and is worth the hard work. Seeking healthy relationship with food and exercise. To run without the mental torture and eat without a calorie calculator in my head. To dream and aspire because there is so much more life available without an ED. To look in mirrors. To enjoy food. To discover why this happened and challenge every false assumption. To re-learn who I am. To quit dieting and love health, nutrition and fitness with COMPASSION for myself. For this to be worth something. To help others. For this to be the making of me, not what tears me down.

TO FIGHT. Challenge accepted.
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You don’t have to be emaciated or vomiting to be suffering. All people who live their lives on a diet are suffering.
Portia de Rossi, Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and Gain (via lilladylazarus)
Don’t live the same year 75 times and call it a life.

Robin Sharma (via severs)

This hit me like a brick…

(via knitting-books)

(via bonafidepie)

winter-glitter-red:

this is one of the best thing I have seen in my life.

(via summerof-recovery)

Stopped during my run for a few minutes just to sit and look at the prettiness around me. Managed 8km this morning though it was already pretty hot out here! #ruislip #ruisliplido #nature #running #goodmorning #takeamoment #dog #silhouette (at Ruislip Lido)

❤️ Very nice. #questnutrition #proteinpickandmix #nom #edrecovery #ednos #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ednos #ednosrecovery #recovery #bingeeatingdisorder #bingeeating #peanutbutter #protein #anorexiarecovery #foodismedicine

bulimics-at-work:

I’n always the exception.

bulimics-at-work:

I’n always the exception.

somewhere-in-the-leaves:

Please, don’t become obsessed with numbers. Whether it be the numbers on the scale or the marks on your arm, do not become obsessed with numbers. Become obsessed with sunrises that like clockwork fill up the sky with a light that isn’t lessened by any of the darkness in the world. Become obsessed…

Gotta keep Cashew cool. Mum and dad have moved him around the house all day whilst I was out trying to keep him cool and happy. I love my parents :) #hamster #hamstersofinstagram #heatwave #priorities

Handsome boy. #hamster #hamstersofinstagram #lovehim

My new favourite snack!! #edrecovery #recovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ednos #ednosrecovery #bingeeating #bingeeatingdisorder #anorexiarecovery #foodismedicine #nom #healthy #snack #tesco

With the lovely Bethan today :)

Another picture from our trip down the river. #cambridge #cambridgeshire #rivercam

Went punting up the river in Cambridge today with friends. Nice day! (at River Cam)

punkkimono:

some of the best moments of my life and the best people i’ve met have come during the worst times. When i feel hopeless, i will try to remember how later these moments might be part of something important to me.